losing hope

October 12
i am pretty sure i'm not pregnant. killer backache the last 2 days and am getting more tender/ full feeling, which always preceeds my cycle. i was kind of hopeful bc the OHSS has really set in. they say it goes away within 7-10 days after treatment but mine is just now kicking on. i look and feel 5 months preggo again and had my fingers crossed it was bc of hcg which activates the OHSS. i will test on sunday if my cycle isn't here. beyond that we might need to take a break for a little bit to let my body relax. i am SUPER duper big/bloated which means i am sure to have some cysts. i'll keep you posted.