small scare

December 15
i had a scare today...went to the bathroom and there was blood. they had me come in for an u/s right away and the babies were bouncing around like crazy, heartbeats strong. no sub chronic bleeds and really no explanation that they could give. hasn't happened since, which i am thankful for...but it was still so scary, even at 13 weeks.

we had an unexpected u/s on friday which is always such a blessing (even though it was scary at the time.) i told bess that they must be boys! they are soooo active. (then again so are laura's girls) one of them was pushing off the side of the sack with his feet and would bounce backwards and do it all over again. it was so funny and i hated laughing bc we would lose the image. both of my last u/s have been abdominal which i much prefer! no more uncomfortable probing.. i am so thankful to be in my 14th week now and can't believe how quickly the last half of the 1st trimester went. i am still dealing with many fears about having twins... both potential complications and caring for them once they arrive. i keep reading that you have to ask for lots of help, which i am really not good at. i fear not having the necessary support. any one else ever struggle with this or have this experience with your babies? i know we have such a wonderful community of friends we can count on...it's just hard to ask for the help i guess. enough rambling...just processing some concerns out loud. i love these babies and know i will be completely enamored with them...but when i wake up in the middle of the night, the anxiety is there...how will i know what they need, how will i be able to provide it? being an early childhood educator i feel skilled once kiddos are 2 or 3 years old...but before that i am completely helpless.