i've been thinking about your questions. i took the babies on an hour long walk this evening. one of my favorite things to do with them.. as i was praying i realized one of the things i have learned most about parenthood. i am truly inadequate for it...yet His strength is perfect. He has given me certain skills or gifts so i often "get by" while living independently of Him. not sure if that makes sense.. but all to say that i fail to live & serve in the strength that He supplies because some things just come more naturally. i have never been this utterly desperate for Him and completely emptied of myself. i have also learned what it means to live a crucified life. there is no room for yourself when you have sweet babies needing so much of you. i thought marriage was a sacrificial covenant... how much more is being a mommy! it was refreshing to be convicted & confess the many ways i resist brokenness & all of the ways i want to hang onto "my rights"...
our daily challenge has been to cling to Him, whose strength is perfect in our weakness
our sweet babies at just 3 days old
Oh my sweet friend..I echo your thoughts on the further stretching that mommyhood brings. I have never had to empty myself so fully. But what a good God we serve that He gives this incredible love for these little ones we have, and we rarely resent the time and effort. What an amazing earthly picture of our Savior's love for us, too. We love these little ones even though they really give us nothing in return...truly unconditional, like Jesus' love for us (although His reaches farther than ours ever could!). You're awesome!
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