starting treatment

Sept 17
I started the injections last night…once you move to all injections you have to do them yourself and ryan just doesn’t have the stomach for it. I have the option of giving it to myself in the leg but I HATE needles and it is 1 ½ inches! How I wish you girls lived nearby …of all the nurses we have in our group and all the others who have gone through IVF like pros! So our pastor ended up giving me my injection last night! He & his wife struggled through infertility as well. My school nurse will do it during the week and we have med school friends who will fill in for us too. I told my pastor that one day he can look at our child and say...do you know that I helped you get here! I will have my u/s on Thursday…please pray that I have no more than 3-4 follies so they do not cancel the cycle. As for us thinking through adoption…I am still so hopeful to conceive first but I am thankful to be challenged to submit to the Lord in this way. I have held so tightly to my will in this area…quite often worshipping the idea conception over the living God. I know my desires are pure and I am thankful that He both created and understands them…but I know He is asking me to yield them also. Two questions He continues to challenge me with: 1…do you believe that I am good? and 2. Will you trust me? May both of my responses be a resounding YES! So as for adoption…we are only beginning to consider and pray if this might be a possibility in the future…but for now are planning to press forward in treatment… probably for a while longer anyway. I did want to share the words to the song that really moved me.
Home
Words and music by ross king

Your mother and I had a plan
We knew the ending before it began
American woman, American man
With American dreams

How could we ever have known?
The God who can save had a dream of His own
He opened our heart and He made it your home
And it changed everything

Not flesh of my flesh
Not blood of her blood

You are heart of her heart
And soul of my soul
Your mother and I were broken inside
Then you came and made us whole
And now we’re loved by your love
And you are named with our name
Cause a real family is more than biology
It’s more than looking the same
Would we have prayed
A different way
If we had known that God would bring you home?

Nothing prepared us for this
We never knew we would fall like we did
Surely there’s no one that’s ever been given
A sweeter surprise

All we can give is our love
Love is the way you were given to us
We only pray we can love you enough
For the rest of our lives

Not flesh of my flesh
Not blood of her blood

You are heart of her heart
And soul of my soul
Your mother and I were broken inside
Then you came and made us whole
And now we’re loved by your love
And you are named with our name
Cause a real family is more than biology
It’s more than looking the same
Would we have prayed
A different way
If we had known that God would bring you home?